Me Against Me

[INTRO] Mmm… Yeah… I hear it again… That voice in my head… (low drone) Who am I fighting? (BOOM) [VERSE 1] I wake up with a war inside my chest Same old thoughts, they never let me rest I look into the mirror, see a stranger in my eyes One part of me wants peace, the other wants to die I keep my mouth shut, but my mind won’t sleep All the things I never said are buried way too deep Everybody sees the smile, nobody sees the cracks I keep running from myself, but I always circle back There’s a voice telling me, “You’re never enough” Another one says, “Get up, you gotta stay tough” I don’t know which one is mine anymore I built all these walls, now I’m locked behind the door [PRE-CHORUS] Left side says, “Run” Right side says, “Stay” I’m caught in the middle Every single day I wanna let go But I hold on tight Fighting with myself Every damn night [CHORUS] It’s me against me And I don’t know who wins I keep fighting the person That’s living under my skin I scream in the silence But nobody hears I carry my demons Like they’ve been here for years It’s me against me No enemy in sight Just two sides of my soul Going to war every night 808 shaking the room But it can’t shake what’s inside I can run from the world But I can’t run from my mind [VERSE 2] Sometimes I hate the person I became Sometimes I hate the person I was yesterday I keep changing faces just to hide the pain But every mask I wear still remembers my name I tell myself I’m fine, then I fall apart Put the pieces on the floor, try to rebuild my heart I know exactly what I need, still I choose the wrong road Funny how the deepest wounds are the ones nobody knows I want control, but my thoughts take the wheel I know what’s fake, but I still want to feel I push everybody away when they get too close Then wonder why I’m standing here alone [PRE-CHORUS] Left side says, “Run” Right side says, “Stay” I’m caught in the middle Every single day I wanna let go But I hold on tight Fighting with myself Every damn night [CHORUS] It’s me against me And I don’t know who wins I keep fighting the person That’s living under my skin I scream in the silence But nobody hears I carry my demons Like they’ve been here for years It’s me against me No enemy in sight Just two sides of my soul Going to war every night [BRIDGE] (beat cuts) Maybe I’m the problem… Maybe I’m the cure… (silence) Maybe all this darkness Is something I endure… (reversed vocal) Who am I… Who am I… (808 slide) BOOM I don’t need to win… I just need to survive. [VERSE 3] Now I see my reflection and I don’t look away I know every mistake that I made yesterday I can’t change the past, I can’t rewrite the pain But maybe I can learn how to live with my name There’s a war in my head, but I’m still standing Heart full of scars, but I’m still demanding One more day, one more breath, one more fight If I lose myself again, I’ll find me tonight I’m not perfect I’m not healed I’m still learning What is real But the voice in my head Doesn’t own me anymore I can hear it knocking I just don’t open the door [FINAL CHORUS] It’s me against me But I’m starting to see The enemy I was fighting Was a broken part of me I scream in the silence Now I’m finally heard I don’t need to silence demons I just need to know their words It’s me against me And maybe that’s alright Two sides of my soul Still learning how to coexist tonight [OUTRO] Mmm… Still fighting… Still breathing… Still me. (low-pass closes) Silence.